Sometimes I get sad...
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Sometimes I get sad…
You guys ever find yourself scrolling through pictures from your phone, and one catches you. You stop, take a good long look, and you feel your heart drop?
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Is it just me or does this happen to you too? I can be going along having a beautiful day, and then BOOM, a picture from the past stops me in my tracks, and gives me all the feels. Don’t get me wrong, this can happen with all the feels; happiness, joy, hilariousness, etc., but it’s that one that reminds you of what was. It’s the one, when you start to compare where you are now, to where you were back then. This is when the mind kicks into gear and has its way with you. It’s a slippery slope my friends. You begin to question yourself, your confidence and your being.
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“Was it really that bad” No.
“Did you feel better then, than you do right now in this very moment.” Likely, yes.
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This is what the mind does to keep us safe.
This is what I’ve had to train my body to say back to my mind.
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“Thank you, mind. I’ll take it from here.”
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You see, I had become all too familiar and comfortable feeling a certain way. For those of you in the Tony Robbins realm, my emotional home was being alone. AND in the past, it was what I feared the most. Yes, think about that one for a minute. My emotional home was the exact place I feared. You can imagine my predicament.
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If you are reading this, and you feel alone, and or sad. I want to tell you that: I LOVE YOU. YOU MATTER, and you are not alone, even when it may feel like it.
I feel you.
I hear you.
I am you. (What)? A post for another time, but we are all connected, and sometimes we feel the pain of others, to wake us up to something else, something new.
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What I mean is sometimes the veil of sadness swipes into our aura to provide contrast, to wake us up, and/or to make sure we are feeling all the feels. Because when we feel it, we heal it.
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You might be thinking, Katie Carlson? She’s always so sparkly, bubbly, and light. Yes, I do love my sparkles, AND I am human. I have my moments, and truth be told, I’ve had many more of these beautifully contrasting moments as of late. Deep down, I know that this contrast is guiding me to something different, something new, something greater than me, and it’s been a really painful process. Sometimes, we have to shed the armor, because the real strength is just below the armor. It’s in the courage to be vulnerable, to be seen, and to be heard from such tender place... our truth.
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So, if you’re feeling the feels of the past and comparing to how you feel in the present. Like all things, this too shall pass. AND, it’s always nice to be reminded you’re not alone, even when it feels that way.
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Today, I am feeling all sorts of feels which prompted this soliloquy. If you made it this far, thanks for sticking with me… Wow, you never know how one picture, thought or feeling can create a tidal wave of words and emotion.
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If you’re feeling the feels today too. Go look yourself in the mirror, and say:
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I love you.
I’m sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.
***say it at least 3 times then give yourself a kiss. Yes, a kiss in the mirror. It works! I can’t take credit for that tip. Thank you John Margerison! 😉❤️✨
You are not alone.
